Reviews, thoughts and frozen silence

I had a wonderful discussion with one my oldest and dearest friends yesterday. We agreed that as we have gotten older we have begun to look at the past and the future in quite a different way than in our youth. Through experience and conflicts, changes and challenges, we have realized that there isn’t a stable, definitive state or statuelike concept of "me" that could be mapped and then set in stone forever. Rather we continuously define ourselves over and over again, and through interaction and shared experiences we realize that who we were is not something we are now, and will be tomorrow.

There are some things you can’t shortcut in life. Only after experiencing something firsthand can you realize that the things you thought were important probably aren’t, and other things take their place. But if somebody tried to told you it before the experiences, you’d laugh or shake your head. There are things that cannot be learned from the books, they have to be learned with gut and sometimes pain. Some of these things are not reversible. After you have realized something you feel is important, it is almost impossible to forget it and go back to where you were before the change. You look back and think "that was who I was, but not anymore".

I think this is one of the most important things when it comes to life. We continuously redefine ourselves from cradle to grave.

I’ve realized that while people can do horrible things to each other, I truly wonder if one could ever say that the person committing the act is actually evil or malevolent. There are always reasons and experiences in the life of the actor in question that can offer some insight and understanding to his actions and decisions.

Of course, this doesn’t mean that the actions and decisions would be acceptable. But I think it is important to try to understand people, whatever they end up doing or saying. When you manage to at least in some way understand why anyone would end up doing something, it gives you possibility to let go of your own anxiousness and lockdown, even if the acts themselves would be impossible to accept or be forgiven.

In general, I think life is mostly about learning to understand and accept your own feelings, thoughts and values. One could say that life seems to be all about learning to understand and eventually accept yourself. When you manage to understand others you usually learn to understand yourself better.

In my books, mental stability requires understanding. Usually problems arise from the fact that you are at a loss and don’t know from where are you coming and where would you like to go. And from understanding eventually arises possible acceptance, or at least possibility to change the situation if it isn’t acceptable.

Understanding and acceptance. Simple but powerful things.

I’m your average finnish person, living in the capital city of Helsinki. I was born in 1981 and finished my studies at the university the spring of 2008. My life revolves around music, roleplaying games, computers, acrobatics, films, music, in my opinion high quality series, music and did I mention music? I hold freedom of art in high regard and politically stand relatively left wearing green.

With this blog I hope I can share some of the experiences and pieces of art and media that have offered thorough experiences to me, and sincerely belive that they can offer something to you, dear reader also. Feel free to comment and discuss the articles if you feel like it, nothing is more important and powerful than communication, and free communication that spans great distances is something internet is all about, don’t you agree?

Here are some important links for your pleasure:

• Frozen Silence @ Jamendo.com
• Celestial Aeon Project @ Jamendo.com
• Project Divinity @ Jamendo.com
• my homepage
• my last.fm profile